Adopting Again...

Today the social worker from our adoption agency came out to visit. They needed to do our one year follow up visit. And we needed to talk about adoption #2! This is something I've been struggling with so much. When to move forward with the next adoption. But I feel much better after our meeting today.

I was clear with her about where I'm at financially (that's a big piece). I could afford raising two kids now but I'm not prepared yet for the huge adoption fees. I need some time to get my savings built back up. She totally understood that. I did let her know though that if the agency wanted to waive the fees I would be willing to move forward today. She didn't think they would be able to do that. Shocking right!

I was also really clear about where I'm at with the idea of adding a second baby to the mix. The Hulk and I are a good team and it seems a little to early for me to mix it up with another little one. And while The Hulk doesn't have major medical problems I really want to get the whole asthma thing stabilized before I add another in too. We are still fighting with finding the right med combo and I'm still doing treatments every 4 hours. I would just like to make sure he is completely on track before I push forward. The medical stuff is a huge financial piece too. His hospital stay was some bucks!

So after we talked all that out we agreed that we would meet again in December to start on paperwork and creating my profile and working on the home study. By the time all that was ready it would be January/February. She does think that I will match quickly this time around. When I told her I was counting on about a year again she laughed at me and said she would guess 6 months. I guess families are matching quickly right now.

I did at one point have her laughing so hard at me that I thought she was going to pee her pants. The pathetic part was I didn't even mean to make her laugh. We were filling out the profile paperwork and she asked me what races I was open to. I told her that I was open to anything but a white baby. She just looked at me and started laughing! I guess that is an odd answer. I just can't imagine having a white baby now. Nothing against any white babies out there. I love my nieces and they are white. It's just when I think of my family I think of me and my non white children. So that's just us. She can laugh all she wants but it makes sense to me....

So that's the deal... adoption wise!

Clickin Mama

Not Me Monday.... Not Today

My heart is to heavy for MckMama and her sweet boy Stellan today to do a Not Me Monday Post. Instead I'm going to use the time I usually spend doing the post and visiting the other participants in prayer for baby Stellan. He is not doing well and needs all the prayers he can get. So please if your heart guides you join me as a pray for this sweet baby....




Clickin Mama

Random Picture Challenge

It's time for some random picture challenge fun! This week we are taking the 27th picture from our 27th folder of pictures.

This is my random picture. It is from Christmas of this year. It's my brother-in-law Brian showing off the new pants he got as a gift.



What is really funny about this to me is that I did not take this picture. What happened was that during our present opening my dad's CF card got full. So I gave him my extra one to use. When he returned it to me it still had pictures on it so I loaded them on my computer. So thanks Dad for contributing to the random picture challenge! Who knew!

Clickin Mama

The Weather Outside Is Frightful

The weather outside has been a bit frightful here! We have had one heck of an ice and snow storm. My poor tree limbs are sagging under the weight of all that ice! But it is beautiful to watch. We have spent the whole weekend inside! We are avoiding the crazy drivers and freezing wind. But I did venture out (to the garage) to take these pictures from the door. The snow was still coming down and it was freezing. When I came back in I opened the blinds and stood The Hulk up on the back of the couch so he could watch it. I even got him to say Brr when he touched the cold window. I can't wait till next year when he is walking and we can go out and play in the snow! That will be a blast!!!!

What's A Girl To Do....

What is a girl to do when she wakes up at 3:00 a.m feeling rested. What is she to do when she doesn't feel like throwing up for the first time in days. What is she to do when she can't go back to sleep no matter how hard she tries?

She should do some spring cleaning of course!!!

The pantry was a mess inside and on top. It seems to be the catch all for things I don't want The Hulk to touch. So I got that taken care of...






And the freezer was so full I couldn't cram anything else in there. It was a bit frightening... Not anymore though!




Every time I opened one of my cabinets bottles would fall out and attack me so I got that taken care of.




And lets not forget my terrifying office space! Seriously it was out of control! And I always put off cleaning it because it's so bad. But this morning there were no other options! It had to be done!!!




And of course there is always laundry to be folded!



So since I got all of that done before The Hulk woke up at 7:30 this morning we have had a wonderful day! We have played and played and done lots of laughing and snuggling. Yesterday's horrible day is a distant memory! And since I did so much this morning while he has been napping today I've been reading this really good book!




So what have you been doing today?

Clickin Mama

The Terrible Horrible Awful No Good Very Bad Day!

It has been a rotten day here. In fact it's just been a down right very bad day here. One of the worst days The Hulk and I have ever had together. We are usually right in sync and everything is pretty much smooth sailing. But we hit some rough waters today and it was very very bad! Neither one of us is feeling very good so I'm sure that has something to do with it.

This morning when I woke up I still wasn't feeling that great. I threw up a couple of times in the middle of the night but I really needed to get some stuff done at work. So I took The Hulk to daycare and I headed to the office. I was there about an hour when I started throwing up again. And it came on so fast that I didn't have time to make it to the bathroom or even the trash can. Yes indeed I threw up all over my desk. NICE! So I finished up my projects and called it a day. My head was pounded, my stomach hurt and I just wanted a shower and my bed.

But you see that couldn't happen quickly. Oh no it could not! I try to turn down my street and there is a road closed sign and they are working on the railroad tracks. Great! So I think I'll take the back way in and go about 6 blocks down and you guessed it! ROAD CLOSED!!! So I take a lovely 10 mile detour that only took about 15 minutes because I had to stop to throw up on the side of the road three times and finally arrived at my house. Once here though I quickly showered and crashed. I did sleep for about five hours and then went and got The Hulk.



When I got to daycare to get him in was in the middle of throwing a fit. This are becoming more common. I think it is due to frustration. There is so much he wants to do but he just can't yet. He hasn't quite figured out his limitations. So fit throwing occurs and we all just try to ignore it in hopes it will stop....

But we get home and I feed him and I think all is well until breathing treatment time. He was having none of that! You would have thought I was trying to cut off his fingers the way he carried on. But he is barking like a seal so he has to have it. So he cried and screamed and kicked the whole time. I'm thinking that is a good sign his lungs are functioning though.

To make up for the breathing treatment torture I got out a few of his new favorite toys and tried to play with him in my "I'm so excited to play with The Hulk" way. For that I got a little people toy slammed into my tooth! I wanted him to have the little people toys. What was I thinking? Those damn little people hurt! So I tried to regroup and get out his new drum and tambourine and maracas. He loves music so this will be good. Nope, this brings about a lay down on the floor sobbing turn into a pile of mush fit! Music man he was not!



So that was my cue that bedtime was near. I gave him a bottle which he chucked across the room, I tried to rock him at which point he arched his back and screamed. So The Hulk got laid in his bed to cry it out. Except get this. There was no crying. I laid him down in the bed, he looked up at me, smiled, laughed, rolled over and went to sleep! I guess he was worn out.

Here's to hoping tomorrow is a much better day!!!!

Clickin Mama

Just A Swinging

I'm still sick. I have a stomach bug or something. So Jello and chicken broth are my best friends today. Yum Yum! So since I'm still not feeling so hot all ya get are pictures. My Dad and Cricket got The Hulk a swing for his birthday and he LOVES it! Here is the proof....