Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Excited

I'm excited... I'm happy... Like really happy... Oddly happy...

I don't know how to explain it really. There is no real reason for it. I just finally feel happy again. I finally feel like me again. Like the me I was before my mom got sick. It's odd really. But it's kind of like the fog has lifted. This month is 5 years ago that she got sick. Like really sick. Does it really take 5 years for happy to come back? And should I feel guilty that happy is returning? Because I feel a little guilty.

But mostly I feel happy and excited. Excited about life again and living. Excited about all the cool things going on in my life. Things like Wagoner Photography and the new blog I just lauched. I'm heading into year three of business and I'm excited about the new changes coming. I'm excited to see with a solid business and marketing plan in place what all I can do this year.

I'm excited about how really cool my kid is getting to be. Parenting a toddler is SO much easier than a baby. We have so much fun together now. We have some fun things planned for the coming months and I'm excited to take him places and do things now that he can actually give me some feedback and get excited too.

So life is exciting and happy and just a little bit guilt filled!

3 comments:

Missy said...

I hope 2011 brings you all that you want, you deserve it!!

jodilee0123 said...

I'm sure you have heard it from a gazillion people, but I'm sure your beautiful mother does not want you to feel guilty about being happy. She wants you to be happy happy happy happy happy happy! Your post really made me smile! :0)

Holley said...

Oh, what a wonderful post! I am so thrilled to read those words.

Of course, I had no doubt that you would feel this way "someday"..it's just lovely to read!

Mothers ALWAYS want their children to be happy...as you now know so well through your own son.

(((hugs)))