Wednesday, December 29, 2010
This year I decided I was also going to get myself a gift. So I gifted myself a gym membership. According to the scales at the doctor's office since Hulk was born almost three years ago I have lost 72 pounds now. I knew I was losing some here and there but until he told me the amount I didn't realize how much it was. While I still need to lose about 50 more pounds I also need to do some serious toning. I'm not kidding when I tell you that when I wave to people I about knock myself out. My flabby arms look like chicken wings. I have to do some toning. So off to the gym I go. We will see if I can get the arm flab under control soon.
That would be a great gift!
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Hulk is just the perfect age! He really understood this year and was just so much fun. From making cookies, to baking Jesus a birthday cake, to opening gifts, to playing with new toys. He was just a blast! We got to spend the whole weekend with my sister too and got lots of time with my best friend Darby and her family. It was just a very relaxing laugh filled weekend! The best Christmas that I've had in years!
Hulk got some really wonderful gifts. I got him an indoor trampoline, a digital camera, and some other little things, my sister got him a kitchen, my dad and cricket got him a picnic table and movies, and Monte and Kathy got him a cute chair, a fun truck, and lots of clothes and pj's. What's crazy is he seemed so excited about all of it. He has spent so much time playing with everything and having a blast.
I hope that you all had a wonderful Christmas too!
Thursday, December 23, 2010
And boy am I glad I did! We had SOOOO much fun. Seriously one of the most fun evenings we have ever had. We both laughed so hard. I was crying halfway thru from laughing at him. He kept rolling the dough so seriously and then he would just crack up and say "this is so funny mama." And it was so dang funny and fun and just wonderful!
There was once when I was laughing and started crying that I was a bit overwhelmed with missing my mom. The sad tears quickly turned to happy tears. This child heals my heart. Everytime we have moments like this I'm reminded of how magical the relationship is between a parent and their child. While yes I miss my mom I know she was with us tonight. Laughing a little bit too. And I hope and pray that some day in the very distant future Hulk will have a moment with his own children and know I'm still there too.
I could get a million dollars on Christmas morning and it wouldn't matter. Tonight was the best gift of all!
There is just a lot to get down at home this week. Extra baking, arranging back up daycare for the kidlet since daycare is closed, the wrapping, the cleaning, the crap we all do before holidays. But the last part of December is also crazy at work too. There are always presents and food to deliver to folks, finishing up year end reports and numbers, blah blah blah. I shouldn't let it but it does stress me out.
I'll be thrilled when it is all over for another year!
Monday, December 20, 2010
This funky amazing piece of art is now hanging in my living room! I love it. I love the colors, the shapes, the flower, well all of it really. But most of all I love that my amazingly talented sister made it for me! She rocks like that. If I picked up a paint brush and painted the end result would be either a huge mess or a group of stick people. Painting is not my area of expertise. Luckily I have her to decorate my place.
Sunday, December 12, 2010
But since he is almost 3 he is doing so many cool things lately! Things like talking in some complete sentences! Things like using the toilet more and more frequently. Things like pretending when he plays which just cracks me up! Things like attempting to negotiate with me on things. Oh he is turning into quite a boy rather than a baby!
Hulk is quite the mover! He is pretty much constant motion. Jumping, running, just bouncing everywhere. He really doesn't sit still for much anymore! He is also pretty smart and is doing very well at daycare/school. He is doing some occupational therapy to help with some of his sensory integration issues (hence all the moving) and just recently had a lot of testing that he did well on. He seems to get along well with his classmates and has a little bit of a crush on a little gal in his class.
Hulk all of a sudden HATES and I mean HATES having to take a bath. I don't know what that is about but I am mastering the art of the 2 minute bath with a screaming toddler. He does however love animals and really really wants a pet or ten pets. We are still negotiating that.
So almost three isn't so bad. But I do miss my little baby just a bit!
My sister came home to visit this weekend. We had a really good time! Hulk was super wild and sick of being stuck in the house so it was like wrestle mania up in here! But once he went to bed it was girl time. Complete with chocolate chip cookies, hot chocolate with butterscotch schnapps for me and some wine for Heather! We ate and drank a little to much while we played table topics. But it was lots of fun and lots of laughing.
Have you ever played table topics? It's a blast! Basically you just pull a card from the stack and answer the question, discuss the question, laugh your head off at the answer to the question. You may get serious questions like who is your mentor or a fun question like where would you like to travel to next. It's not really a game so much as a conversation starter. It will be great when Hulk gets older to encourage dinner time conversation but for now it's just fun to play with my sister while drinking and eating too much. You know just typical girl time activities....
Sunday, December 5, 2010
I took this photo a couple weeks ago when it was still Fall. Feels like it was forever ago though. Fall just flew by. Not only were we really busy but the weather wasn't fall like for long. It stayed very warm for so long that we really only had a couple weeks of fall like weather before winter came rushing in. Quite a disappointment for me as I LOVE fall!
Even though Fall was short we still enjoyed it. We made several trips to the zoo, the apple orchard and the pumpkin patch. Lots of time playing outside and going on adventures. I had a great fall photo event that was lots of fun and very successful. And now we are ready to enjoy the winter.
Hulk is looking forward to snow. He looks for it every morning. I think he may go crazy waiting. He has even practiced putting on his snow clothes so he will be ready. And today I had to buy that child an ADULT sized hat! Seriously no little kid hats fit him so he has a man hat to wear in the cold. I hear rumblings that snow may come in the next week or so. We will be waiting. Some of us more excitedly then others....
Saturday, December 4, 2010
I have to admit I am a little bit proud of myself! Today I designed a new photo set to use during the winter months. Since it's to cold to do much outdoor shooting I needed something fun for indoors. So today I got all the supplies I needed and put the new set together.
Since I needed to try it out to make sure the wood floor would stay together and the lighting would be okay I recruited the best neighbor kids in the world. Not only does this beautiful young lady help me wrangle Hulk from time to time and watch him when I have photo sessions she also willingly models for me when needed. Talk about a gem!
And her younger brother is always a great playmate for Hulk. He never grows tired of pulling him around in the wagon or chasing him in the yard. They really are the best neighbor kids a gal could ask for.
I think we are going to suprise their parents with a few of their photos for Christmas. So it really worked out great. I got to try out the new set and the kids got the Christmas gifts covered. SUCCESS!!!
Friday, December 3, 2010
Lots of people thought I was crazy for bringing her into our home, a large portion of my family included. "How would this affect Hulk?" "Could I afford it?" "What if we got hurt?" All of these questions were asked of me multiply times by multiple people.
And my answer was and still is "I know this doesn't make sense, it isn't a great time to add another child, there are lots and lots of unknowns. But she laughs like my son!" I don't know that anyone but an adoptive mama could really understand this. But when I heard her laugh and mistook it for Hulks laugh I knew I could not or maybe would not say no! To know that a child so very connected to my own needed a safe place to be and to say no would be unforgivable to me. Maybe others could but I could not.
So while her short stay was dramatic and difficult in some ways I don't regret a moment of it. Even if she never stays with us again Hulk had the chance to laugh with someone that laughs like him. And I know that is priceless!!!
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
I don't care if she likes it! You cannot jump on her head like that!
Why is there a doll in the toilet?
Hmmm I don't think the toilet is where doll's like to take baths.
Okay Hulk where is the doll's head? I've told you not to take them off!
Why are there muffins in your dresser drawer?
Please only keep food in the kitchen. We don't hide it in our drawers or the closet or anywhere else.
Monday, November 15, 2010
Heading to school/daycare today was a bit overwhelming for miss firecracker. She has never been to daycare before and was a little scared. She was not happy about me leaving her this morning but she ended up having a good day. It took her awhile to warm up but she had fun. And during outdoor play time she got to see Hulk so all was well. I guess they spend all their time together during playtime which is kinda sweet. Even though she is older he kind of helps her along. I wish I had taken my camera with me because this morning when she got upset before we went in the school he took her hand and said "I show you where to go. It's okay". They held hands all the way in the building. Such a sweet boy!
Okay I'm off to bed. These children wear me out!!!
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Hulk has a biological sister that is 13 months older than he is. Her name is Amara but I'll probably be calling her Firecracker on the blog. Anyways Amara is now staying with us for a bit. Her mama is having some problems right now so we are happy to give her a nice place to stay for a bit. She has an hilarious personality, a ton of energy and a lot of love to share. She and Sylas have hit it off and spend the majority of the day laughing. I'm learning all about "girlie" things and have even allowed pink into the house. Today I found a boa feather on the floor and tripped over a pair of play high heels so I think there is a girl officially in the house! This has been a whirlwind adventure and I'm sure it will continue to be so. I just keep praying for guidance and keep taking it a day at a time.
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
I just finished reading the final book in the Hunger Games Trilogy by Suzanne Collins! This series has been the the best series of books I've read in a really long time! My sister has now read them, and her best friend, and a gal at her office. We keep passing them around and everyone I know that has read them has loved them.
Heather and I were talking about the books a couple weekends ago when I had just finished book 2 and she had just finished book 1. We really wonder if this may be a series of books that is someday discussed in senior english classes much like 1984 and Of Mice and Men were required reading for us. They really are that good in my opinion.
Have any of you read them yet? I'd love to know what you all think?
Thursday, October 21, 2010
So he usually grabs a toy of some kind and I grab my camera and out we go adbenture hunting. We have a favorite place in the woods we like to go. There is a little creek and a couple bridges and lots and lots of trees. So the rule is as soon as we cross the bridge into the trees he is the boss. When we cross back over the bridge I'm the boss again. He thinks this is really cool!
So during the adventure we hunt for bugs and sticks and leaves and sometimes monsters or sunbeams or birds. And he tells me when to march or run real fast or give him a hug. And I willingly participate in the adventure game. And for 30 minutes each day that 2 year old feels like he is king of the world. He is on the hunt for something really "awesome mama" and he gets to call the shots.
And then as the sun begins to set we cross back over the bridge to the real world. Mama is once again the boss and the adventure game is over. And by that time my boy is usually pretty sleepy and worn out. So it never fails I end up scooping him up and hauling him halfway home.
I can't imagine any better adventure!
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Mama a doo doo head! Not so nice and totally caught me off guard. So after I told him that wasn't nice I went in the other room and laughed out loud! This week he also threw a dinosaur at me. Chucked it right at me. Before I could say a word he walked over and sat in his chair in the corner and said "time out right". Yep that's right son!
He also has a new favorite music video. I'm posting it below. Just keep in mind that the entire time he watches it he copies the dance moves and head shakes. It kills me. At the end he says "I Wove My Hair Too"!
My first love has nothing on my big love. This kid makes me laugh every day! He also makes me want to pull my hair out almost every day. I think that means he is a typical 2 year old. Yep I love him. I'll keep him. And I promise I'll blog again tomorrow.
Picture Of My World just seemed fitting to me. I take tons of pictures and love to post them. Plus a blog is really a glimpse into someone's world. So in combing those ideas I picked the title Picture Of My World. I like it for now. We will see what the next blog brings though....
Thursday, October 14, 2010
- I can't stand it when people say cheese for the camera. Drives me nuts!!!
- My greatest fear is that I'll forget to drop the kidlet of at daycare and leave him in the car. So I check the back seat over and over on my whole drive to work.
- Today I bought a pair of jeans that are a size 16. I almost cried! I haven't been this size in years.
- I realized the other day that I go weeks sometime with no hugs other than from the kiddo and that bothers me.
- I want to go skydiving soon.
- I like rap music.
- I have a slight crush on a much older guy but would never do anything about it because he is done having kids.
- I'm ready to have another child but my checking account isn't.
- I buy regular Cheerios for myself and the off brand for the kid. I hide mine so he doesn't eat them. Not nice but I really really love my Cheerios.
- I want to get my nose pierced.
- I eat lunch every Friday with my best friend.
- I don't like to go to bed but I really like to sleep. Odd!
- I mispronounce the word poem.
- I can't sing at all!
- I'm scared of horses.
That's it for today... I'll be back for day two!
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
We have a catch and release program going. He can catch any critter he wants and put it in the bug box. But in the morning before heading out for the day he has to release them all. Most of the time this works out okay. However, the past couple days the snails have all been dead. I don't know what the deal is with that. But tonight he caught things and then before bed we let them go. Trial and error in the catch and release program.
We have been struggling lots lately with listening to the mama. Hulk is super head strong. Part of this I love because it means he is a leader, outgoing, social, and a great advocate for himself. I like knowing that he doesn't always walk in a straight line and follow the crowd. I'm good with that. However, there is a certain amount of compliance that I expect from him. Lately he has really be struggling with that. Which means I'm struggling. Which means lots of time outs and lost video time and fits and you know how all that goes. But I'm sure it will pass soon. It always does.
Tonight I put him to bed and heard him singing a little song I'm sure you all are familiar with. He just added a special verse just for me. Enjoy!
Old McDonald had a farm
And on that farm he had a mama
With a no no here
and a no no there
here a no there a no
everywhere a no no
God I love him. I swear one day I'm going to miss this!!!
Saturday, September 18, 2010
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Monday, September 13, 2010
"Oh a big clock! Can you say clock with an L in it?"
"Please don't put sticks in the air conditioner".
"Because it could cut your hand off."
"Because it's sharp and it will hurt you."
"No that's not AWESOME!" "Get away from the damn air conditioner now!"
"Why is my comb in the toilet?"
"No it can't swim so don't do that again."
"Why are the dinosaurs like that?"
"Well that's very nice of them to hug."
"Sure wish I got hugs like that."
"That is great drawing buddy but let's not do it on the wall. Only draw on paper."
"Why are you licking the couch?"
"Oh because you spilled your milk there." "Please don't do that again and stop licking the couch you look like a dog."
"Well if you really are a dog can I put you in a cage?"
"I shouldn't' have said that. You can put kids in cages. "
"No your not getting a cage."
"Forget it just lick the dang couch if you want."
Thursday, September 9, 2010
Monday, September 6, 2010
Early Saturday morning around 5:00 I heard a little voice say uh oh mama. Hair has ouchies! I was barely awake and reached out for him and he said it again. Hair ouchies as he handed me the scissors. I flipped on the light and turned around and my bed was full of hair! He had cut my hair right below the rubber band holding my ponytail in place. Five inches of hair! He also cut a small section pretty short on the side.
Once it sunk in I was thrilled that he just cut my hair! He climbed onto the bathroom cabinet and had to open the vanity and get the scissors out then jumped down and got into my bed with the scissors and managed to only cut my hair and not stab himself or I! That's a miracle in my book.
So after a trip to an amazing hair stylist I have a fun new short do. I would never have cut my hair short on my own but I really like it. So my little stylist did a good job after all. Regardless of how well it all turned out the scissors are now very hidden and we have had several more discussions about how we never ever ever cut our hair or anyone elses.
Sunday, September 5, 2010
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
And I love that he is doing so many fun activities each day. I so wish I could be home with him but this picture reminds me of what a good experience daycare is for him. The activities and interaction are wonderful for him. And most of all it reassures me that he is okay. He has a blast during the day and is learning lots in the midst of all the play and then I get to pick him up and we can have our own fun and learning. Removes my working mama guilt.
And dang it that shaving cream covered smiling kid just makes my heart happy!!!
Monday, August 30, 2010
Sunday, August 29, 2010
They did 3 root canals and filled 7 cavities. Yes my mouth was a mess! I hadn't had any dental work done in years. Nothing like putting things off. But I'm done now. My jaw hurts and I've been eating soft for for a couple days but today was the first day that it didn't bother me too much. I figure by tommorow I should be good to go. At least that is what I'm hoping.
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Monday, August 23, 2010
When my kid dumped a huge bag of splenda on the kitchen floor right after I did my shuffle mopping I did NOT just open the patio doors and use the leaf blower to blow it all outside.
I did NOT wake up on Saturday morning convinced it was still Friday and get ready for work.
What have you not done lately?
Saturday, August 21, 2010
I was thinking this evening about the pain scale they use at hospitals. You know the one where they ask on a scale of one to ten with one being no pain and ten being the worst pain what would you rate your pain. If someone asked me to do that for the pain I feel over my mom's death I would still rate it an eight.
When you are in the hospital the goal is to never let your pain exceed a five. So how do I function at an eight every day. My eight isn't what I feel on a bad day. I have an eight all the time! How can you live at an eight? Do I live at an eight? I know I'm alive but am I really living? There are so many days that I still drift through in a fog. I know that there are moments every day that I watch my little guy and feel pure joy. But then there is still always that huge empty spot that is a throbbing eight.
Maybe eight will be my magic number forever. Maybe this pain never goes away. Maybe I will just learn eventually how to survive better than I have so far. I suppose this is all part of the journey. I can't help but wonder what kind of person I would be if my mom was still here. I have a feeling life would be quite a bit brighter, more fun, and not quite so painful...
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
That may be the overall goal of National Night Out but it actually is just a really fun excuse to have a party with your neighbors. We had a blast! We had lots of food and root beer floats. The police department stopped by to visit with us all. The fire department brought a fire truck and ambulance for the kids to check out. They thought that was pretty cool. We had music and dancing. Lots of laughing and of course lots of sweating. It was hotter than heck out there! It was really nice to meet everyone, visit, spend time watching the kids play, and just having fun. I can't wait to do it again soon!
"Seriously I mean get the heck off the table!"
"Wow that is a whole lot of post it notes you put on the couch."
"I know you want more grapes but you have to eat something else."
"Because if you eat any more grapes you will poop a whole lot."
"Because grapes make lots of poop I guess."
"That's just how god made them, grapes make you poop."
"We aren't going to talk about the grapes anymore, no more talk about poop either, you can have a cheese stick."
"Why is your diaper off."
"I'm sorry your pinus is weally hot. But we don't just take our diaper off."
"Yes I would love to give you more hugs."