Seriously even on the worst of days it's never that bad! How could it be when you get to see smiles like that! Such a sweet sweet boy! I'd do anything for him. That includes eating food I don't like, going on walks I don't want to go on, checking my blood sugar all day, giving myself shots, and anything else the doctor tells me to do. I stuck one of the above pictures in my diabetes pack. So every time I check my blood sugar I look at that laughing adorable face. That is the face I want to see every day for the rest of my life. I'll do what I have to for him. He deserves that!
I think back to how hard my mom fought to stay with Heather and I. She didn't want to leave us. She went through tests and chemo and medicine and fought like crazy. If she could do that for us I can do this for him. Nothing I have to do is as rough as that! I'll never forget one of my last good days with her. I was laying on the couch with my head in her lap sobbing. It was kind of our good bye talk a couple weeks before she died. I thanked her for everything she had done for me and apologized for being such a shit to her when I was a teenager. She just ran her hands through my hair and said something I will never forget. "Being your mom and Heather's mom is the best job in the world. I never want it to end". I thought I understood that then but I didn't. Now as I rock my little boy to sleep and run my fingers through his hair I really do understand. Sweet boy I never want this to end!
I'll fight for you, for us, forever!